The Rebbe says in
Torah 83 “And he reached the place,” that the prayer shmonei esrei is
the “place.” You have arrived at the shmonei esrei prayer—you’ve
arrived at the right place. When a person stands to say the shmonei esrei,
he is at the foundation stone; he is at the Beis HaMikdash; he is in the
palace of the King. When he comes to such a place—to prayer—he is not in
this world at all; he doesn’t exist. There is no one here but the King
himself. He sees only that “the whole world is full of His glory.” He sees
only Hashem. He sees nothing other than Hashem Yisborach. If you have
reached shmonei esrei, if you reached this place, you have come to
salvation, you have come to the million dollar jackpot—you’re in the right
place! Why are you in such a hurry to run away? Start praying word by word!
You’re in the palace of the King for at least 20 minutes—each blessing takes
a minute. You came to “refa’einu”—this is the place of healing!
“Bareich aleinu”—here is the income! You came to “hashiveinu”—here
is the teshuva! If you would pray very slowly, you would see that you
would receive every type of salvation! There are eighteen blessings which
parallel the eighteen vertebrae. The Tikkunei Zohar explains that
abundance flows from the upper worlds to the lower worlds through the prayer of shmonei
esrei. Do you want the flow of abundance to finish so quickly? An abundance
of healing, income, intelligence, brains—these need to come down through the
eighteen worlds which are the eighteen blessings of shmonei esrei. Are
you going to skip the shmonei esrei? Did you say it quickly? The channels
remained clogged, and the abundance couldn’t descend.
It’s time for mincha! Why are you running away? Where are you rushing
off to? Stop everything and pray the mincha prayer. Mincha takes
40 minutes. You can also pray for 40 minutes. What’s the problem? Why do you
have to be the first one to finish the prayer? You’re not the shaliach
tzibur! The shaliach tzibur needs to finish first, but you can stand
and pray shmonei esrei even for an hour. The Rebbe revealed that all
types of salvation are found in the prayer. You don’t have to be afraid—you
don’t have to worry. Your enemies will become your friends. Are you afraid
what will be with your children? With your income? Just linger a while and say shmonei
esrei slowly and everything will work out fine.
Why doesn’t a person pray like he should? Because he doesn’t believe in the
power of prayer. A person who doesn’t pray the way he should has no emunah.
Why doesn’t a person pray slowly and pay attention to the words of his prayer?
Because he doesn’t think that he needs to pray. Baruch Hashem,
everything seems to be going along just fine without praying—he is a
millionaire, even without prayer. A person doesn’t put any kavannah
into his prayer because he has lost his emunah, like all the goyim who
live their lives without emunah, because if he had complete faith he
would pray every letter and every word with kavannah. If he just had a
drop of humility and would make himself small, constricting his brain and his
pride, he would start praying with kavannah.
If a person had complete faith and would believe that Hashem Yisborach
was standing right next to him and hearing every word that comes out of his
mouth and listening to each and every prayer, then he would pray as he should.
HaKadosh Baruch Hu is waiting for your prayers and He wants to give you
everything. He wants to bring Moshiach, but He is simply waiting for one
prayer with kavannah, one prayer with a broken heart, one prayer said
word by word, letter by letter. This is what He is waiting for, this is what He
is yearning for. And essentially, this is what our problem is. For if we were to
pray one prayer with kavannah, Moshiach would come today—this
moment, this second.
“When a person stands to pray and speaks words of prayer, then he is gathering
fragrant bouquets of flowers and roses” (Likutei Moharan 65)
When a person goes for a walk in the fields, he sees all kinds of
flowers—anemones and cyclamens and daffodils—and he wants to go and pluck
the whole field. He can’t pull himself away from the field, and he goes and
picks more lovely roses and some more daisies and some more daffodils and his
soul returns to him. And this is how our prayer should be: each letter is like a
daffodil or a cyclamen, because each and every word is a whole world. When a
person stands up to pray, he says the words of prayer and gathers up roses and
other beautiful flowers. A person needs to go inside the words, inside of the shmonei
esrei, inside the letters—because each letter has tales to tell and wants
to give you all the presents in the world. Every letter wants to give you all
the bounty in the world. Through each letter, the parts of a person’s soul are
gathered in. The Rebbe says that the speech comes and asks you, and begs you,
“Why are you rushing? Why are you racing through me? I will give you
everything you want—whatever you want I’ll give you.” Each letter grabs
the person and winds himself around the person and hugs him, saying, “Don’t
leave me. Why are you rushing? Why are you running away?” With every single
letter a person draws down all the bounty in the world and can influence others
and all the generations--like Rabbeinu, who brought down abundance for all the
generations, for the days of Moshiach and for the resurrection of the
dead. This is because he stood and prayed shmonei esrei for several
hours, each prayer being said very slowly, he felt that every letter was
grabbing a hold of him. Thus he merited finishing his purpose in this world at
38 years old.
Immediately, when the first letter of the prayer comes out, for instance the “beis”
in the word “baruch,” it pleads and begs, “Don’t run away from
me! Say the word ‘baruch’ very slowly. I will give you everything.
How can you leave me?” “Baruch” is all the blessing in the world.
Just the word “baruch” by itself should draw out the soul from so
much deveikus. The beis says, “How can you leave me? I don’t
understand you. Stand next to me and say me for a few seconds. Stand there
patiently for a few more seconds. Say “baruch” slowly. You’ll get
an apartment. You’ll be healthy. You’ll get everything you need. Why are you
fleeing? I love you. I want you to say me slowly. Don’t you see my beauty, my
splendor, my radiance, my magnificence? I will give you whatever you want, just
be faithful to me. Don’t leave me so quickly. The connection of love between
us is growing stronger every second!”
Reb Nosson prays, “that I should have the power to detach myself from the
letters,” because the letters grab the person so much that he cannot detach
himself from them. Up until the age of twenty a person thinks he is really
alive; he thinks that he is navigating his life. Up until the age of twenty any
punishments that are due him from Heaven don’t get carried out in this world.
After the age of twenty, suddenly he becomes ill, or his wife is sick, or his
child is sick, every day he has to run to the emergency room. He doesn’t
understand the warnings. Start praying! Pray shmonei esrei with kavannah.
Say “refa’einu” slowly; draw healing to everyone, to the entire
nation of
Israel
. “Because You are the Almighty King, who is a faithful and merciful
Healer.” What? Is the doctor in the medical center faithful? Does he really
care about you? Even though he is the most careful, the most punctual, it is
only for the sake of his own career—that’s what interests him. He is not
faithful. He’s not merciful! But Hashem Yisborach is the King who is a
faithful and merciful doctor, taking care of you with total devotion. He
doesn’t need your money. He doesn’t need honor. He doesn’t need to fill
out another form that He took care of another patient in order to get a
promotion. You’ve come to “refa’einu?” You will get all the
healing in the world. Stand there and say the prayer, word by word, letter by
letter. “Heal me, Hashem, and I will be healed.” Heal me, heal me, Almighty
Faithful Doctor.
All the miracles and wonders are ready and waiting for every Jew. Everything is
ready for him. Hashem is just waiting for him to open his mouth and pray.
Prayer
Ribono Shel Olam, the living and existing One, whose glory fills the entire
world, holy of holies, from whom nothing is lacking, the strongest of the
strong, mightiest of the mighty, more successful than all successes, let me
merit to pray each letter and line with kavannah, and to believe with
complete faith that You watch over me and stand next to me every second. And You
nourish every letter and utterance that comes out of my mouth and want to give
me every good that is in the world. And that You suffer infinite pain that You
cannot give me, because You are full of mercy, and You are completely and only
full of mercy, and we have no conception of how infinite Your mercy is that You
want to give infinitely without any investigating, but this comes only through
the letters of prayer. Therefore, from now on, I should merit to put my
heart’s full intention and with all the fine points of my soul into each
letter of prayer and not to say any letter and any word without kavannah.
Ohr
Pnei HaMelech
A person did not come into this world so that the refrigerator should rule over
him, even though material objects are essential. Under no circumstances did we
come to the world for this. We came to shatter the illusion called “this
world.” We came here on a mission, with one purpose: to receive the awesome
and great light of “Ein Od Milvado”--“There is nothing other
than Him.” A Jew cannot exist without a connection to Hashem. If someone
were to try to force a Jew to worship an idol, chas v’shalom, he would
be prepared to sacrifice his life and not do it. This is how Hashem created him!
Even though it is hard for him to overcome his animal soul—because of the
desire to eat or all kinds of other desires—he has the power in his G-dly soul
to be killed for the sanctification of His name, because this is how Hashem made
him—that he has this ability. What is my life worth if I don’t keep the mitzvah
of “be killed but don’t sin.” If a person transgresses this, he completely
destroys his connection with G-dliness. So why would he want to continue living
if he cuts himself off from G-d? The fact that a person is connected to Hashem
is the reality of every man woman and child, and it is impossible to explain
this. The minute that a person has the desire to reach this goal—this true
goal that we call, “There is nothing other than Him”—then he can
essentially stand and hold on in the school of life. Despite the fact that once
again he will be humiliated, and he gets angry, and he fights with windmills,
and he wants to knock down walls, and he searches for other people’s faults,
when really there is absolutely nothing to get so excited about. Who did this to
you? Who fooled you? “Ain Od Milvado”—“There is nothing but
Him.” The minute a person remembers this fact, he calms down. He stops fooling
himself. He gets a hold of himself, and everything becomes easier.
Parparot
L’Torah
“He
dreamed and behold a ladder was set upon the earth, and its head reached toward
heaven.” (28:12)
The word ladder, "סולם"
writes Rabbeinu Yaakov, the Baal HaTurim, has the same gematria as money
״ממון" and as poverty "עוני"
(all have the gematria of 136), because this one will throw a
person down and the other will raise him up. Just as a ladder is made up of
steps, and people go up and down on it, so it is regarding the influence that
money has on a person.
Sometimes money drops a person down to the lowest level, until he reaches the
point of “set upon the earth.” And sometimes money raises the person to the
highest heights, until his “head reaches toward heaven.” But a person needs
to remember at all times that money, like a ladder, is just a means on which to
climb, level by level, to reach a lofty, honorable position in life, and should
never be considered a purpose in and of itself.
“He
dreamed and behold a ladder was set up on the earth, and its head reached toward
heaven.” (28:12)
It is said in the name of the Admor the Rebbe Yisrael from Ruzhyn: The word
“ladder” which is mentioned in Yaakov’s dream is a hint at the Melava
Malka meal (the fourth meal of Shabbos). For our sins, this is a “ladder
…set up on the earth,” that people are not careful about this minhag
and sometimes degrade it by not following the letter of the law regarding the
meal of the King Moshiach. But the truth is that “its head reached
toward heaven”—the worth and value of this minhag reaches the highest
heights. Fortunate is he that makes this meal as prescribed on every Motzei
Shabbas.
Story
on the Parsha
“He
took some of the stones of that place and arranged them around his head”
(28:11) Rashi explains: “The stones started arguing with one another. One
said, ‘The tzaddik will rest his head on me.’ And another said,
‘The tzaddik will rest his head on me.’ Immediately, Hashem turned
them into one stone.”
Rebbe Yom Tov Lipa Teitelbaum, who was the Grand Rebbe of Maramures-Sighet,
suffered terribly from strong opposition in his community. They weren’t
satisfied with hurling offenses against the Rav, but even descended to the
level, lo aleinu, of giving blows to Rebbe Yom Tov and his family. One
day, the Rav was having a meal with a group of local followers and speaking
words of Torah, when suddenly a large stone came flying into the house and
almost hit the Rav’s head. Someone lifted up the rock, tossing it from one
hand to the other, and angrily shouted, “What is the greatness of this stone
that it could endanger human life. How evil those people are who intentionally
threw this rock at our Rav!” “Chas v’ Shalom that you should make
such an accusation about kosher Jews!” Rebbe Yom Tov interrupted. “We
shouldn’t suspect, G-d forbid, that a Jew would throw such a large stone. What
actually happened is that the people threw small stones, and then the stones
started fighting amongst themselves, each one saying, ‘I will rest on the head
of the tzaddik’ and so on, until all the small stones became one large
stone!”
Story
on the Parsha
“Elokim
remembered Rachel and Elokim perceived her [plight] and opened her
womb.” (30:22)
Chazal say that when Rachel Imainu said to HaKadosh Baruch Hu,
“Ribono Shel Olam, you know that Yaakov your servant loved me
tremendously, and worked for my father for seven years for me. And when the
seven years were over, the time came for me to marry my husband, and my father
wanted to exchange me for my sister (Leah). And it was very difficult for me
because I knew of the matter, and I informed my husband, and I gave him a sign
to distinguish between me and my sister so that my father wouldn’t be able to
carry out the exchange. But afterwards, I changed my mind, because I felt sorry
for my sister that she shouldn’t be embarrassed. And that night they gave my
sister to my husband instead of me, and I told my sister the signs that I had
given to my husband so that he should think that she was me. And not only that,
I hid under the bed when he was with my sister, and when he would speak to her
and she was quiet, I would answer each question so that he wouldn’t recognize
my sister’s voice. And this is how I did a kindness for her, and I wasn’t
jealous of her, and I didn’t allow her to be humiliated. And who am I, flesh
and blood, dust and ashes, who wasn’t jealous and didn’t cause my sister to
be disgraced. You are the Merciful Living King—why would you be jealous from
idolatry, which has no basis, that you exiled my children, who were killed by
the sword, and enemies did with them as they wished?” Immediately, HaKadosh
Baruch Hu’s mercy was aroused, and He said “For Rachel I will return
Israel to their place, as it is written (Yirmiahu 31), “Thus said
Hashem: A voice is heard on high, a wailing, bitter weeping, Rachel weeps for
her children; she refuses to be consoled for her children, for they are gone.
Thus said Hashem: Restrain your voice from weeping and your eyes from tears; for
there is reward for your accomplishment—the word of Hashem—and they will
return from the enemy’s land.” Speedily in our days, Amen.
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